Healing Me From The Inside Out/ 7 Tools I Use

Healing and getting healthy is my number one priority these days. We all heal at a different pace. Finding my healing pace is key to my recovery.

After lumbar surgery in January I knew from the moment I woke up I knew this time it would not be easy. Healing has always taken me a little while longer that I expect it to.  Heading to physical therapy I could tell this was going to take a while and it is not easy in the beginning. Therapy what I need and is a treat because it would get easier as time went on.

My problem is that I was not healing as fast as I wanted.16 weeks of therapy and I’m still in pain, Okay what do I do because I think I’m still healing the nerve roots coming from my spinal cord. This can take up to a year I already know this.

Having another MRI and an X-ray to see what the changes were, if any I know that that it is defiantly the nerves that need attention. There are three options on the table. One is to get a stimulator attached to my spinal cord. It sends electrical plusses to the epidural spaces that have been wired to a generator that is under your skin. The Second is to do nothing until it gets worse. Third is my favorite option and that is to go down the rabbit whole and drink the tea. I am going to be just like Alice. I am healing by exploring the alternative methods to support my spinal health, because I always have believed that if we treat our body with trust and give it the right tools it can do miracles in healing the trauma life puts us through.

My Healing Tools

  1. Meditation and positive reaffirming thought about healing. Mine is I am one with my creator and therefore I have the power to heal myself. I visualize myself doing the things I love without pain.
  2. Acupuncture has helped me manage my chronic pain for years so I started that up again. The disruption in the path my brain receives pain signals is helping to control levels of pain.
  3. I am brewing and drinking fermented tea call KOMBUCHA the healthy benefits will promote my body healing itself. This tea balances your gut and cleanses your organs, reduces the inflammation.
  4. Keeping to a good diet* and keeping myself hydrated flushing toxins out of my body.
  5. Vitamins, I take and I eat foods that support nerve rejuvenation like folate or vitamin B-9, vitamin B-12, vitamin D, magnesium, antioxidants and anti-inflammatory can be found in a variety of foods.
  6. I refrain from eating processed foods by cooking and buy as much organic foods as I can.
  7. Move! This is the important because when I move I feel better and Moving in the correct way strengthens the muscles that support the spine and the healing process.

I am not ready to say lets add some more trauma to this spinal cord by doing another procedure. In the past I have done epidurals, had fusion surgery, I came down with spinal meningitis and had lumbar decompression surgery. I know that it took a year to heal from the first surgery and it took a year to heal from the meningitis so I think I will keep using my 7 healing tools and see where it gets me for now.

Healing brought on by resting,

Healing is brought on by resting and taking time.



www.livestrong.com                                                                                                            The big book of KOMBUCHA by Hannah Crum & Alex LaGory



Truth What Is Your Truth

Truth is a matter of opinion. The past defines so many of us. Our truth is not based on others opinion because they are not us. It is our truth that matters.

We are a product of our environment we bring a lot of baggage from our past if we let it. I think that if we try hard to remember who we were before the events that form our opinions of ourselves. Try to think back when you were very young, life was so carefree. Truth is we had no baggage no responsibility, our lives were filled with dreams and excitement about experiencing new things.

Some people come from stable homes with opportunities to develop a great self esteem. Others of us go through hell and don’t realize anything else. Abuse, disappear and low self-esteem seems a cursed because we’re unable to find a better way. These thoughts are depressing to say the least. Suffer from anxiety and depression we don’t always know that if we change our truth we can work towards a better more positive life.

The challenge then becomes how do we move in that direction? What are people in my life going to do as I change? What if I do all this work and nothing changes? All these questions are questions that a damaged person thinks about before being able to see the truth. No person, place or thing should keep you from becoming who you really are.

Every person on this plant wants to be loved and accepted. If we live by others opinion of who we are we engage in keeping ourselves stuck. Stuck from moving forward into a positive life style. People who live in these cycles of abuse and self-loathing can’t see how you can change it. They are a part of the cycle that identifies not only who you are, but also who they are too.

Change is hard and most of us don’t do it on our own, we need help. There are places to get help if you want it bad enough. State programs are set up with people who can support you and the life changes you want to make. Our circle of love ones stand in support of what we’re doing unless they have to participate. Truth is when we change they have to change also because we don’t identify with their idea of our truth. They form opinions from the past and are not willing to let them go.

I can go back to where I grew up, in just a few minutes of talking to friends and family I can see who know me know and are willing to give me the benefit of doubt. Not that it matters because truth is I don’t care what others think. What I think is more important because of the changes I had to make to find myself again.

Defining my life is simple I am a positive loving person that has a positive outlook and is ready to handle anything that life throws at me now.

Truth photo

Truth is we are all unique in every way.


Physical Therapy After My Spinal Surgery

Physical therapy is helping me get my life back on track. There are things I learn every time I go. So I thought why not share maybe it will help you too.

Waking up after lumbar surgery is no joke a very painful experience. I did what I could to get my muscles ready for it, because I knew it was going to be hell. I physical was unable to stand up after surgery. The nurses and therapist we’re there to tell me what to do. My mind was just trying to cope with the excruciating pain I was in.

The physical therapist that worked with me everyday was a welcome sight because as I getting stronger everyday. First the day of surgery they get you up a few times a day. Day two a physical therapist comes in, the next thing I new I was sitting in a chair.

Working patiently with me they showed me how to use my breathing to get through painful movements and to use my arms and legs. Than back to the chair for lunch. I was so grateful for the pain medication and muscle relaxers, because I would have been crazy with so much pain. I didn’t want to move at all because I new the physical trauma I put myself through. So I had an attitude I didn’t want you around me. All though anyone that could help me was a welcome sight. I needed help getting up so I could start walking. I’m using a walker and going as far as I could at least twice a day. The walker was my best friend for a couple of days.

Going right to the rehabilitation hospital was a blessing, I had physical therapy twice a day for 1 1/2 hours a day. My schedule started after breakfast and I’ve learning to walk with a cane, undress dress, dress, take a shower, move over and around objects with out losing my balance. These are things we take for granite.  Rebuilding my core again so I can keep my balance. Finally going up and down the stairs is my goal.

Teaching me to get in and out of a car or do a barrel roll to get of bed is a blessing. I didn’t know how to move I was in so much pain. The therapist explained to me that I am trying to protect the area of trauma in my back. So I may do more harm than good. I’ll be put myself in more pain if I don’t learn to move in the correct way.

Doing things over and over again is necessary to gain my strength back. I may not have worked as much as I need to if I went straight home from the hospital. Physical therapist helped me learn more about my bodies ability to heal when under the stress of the trauma. Dealing with the pain and keeping my healing progressing is the goal. By setting up a program that incorporates the correct ways to move through my daily routine is how I got home.

I came home with a plan and stuck to it. After going in for a follow up, I found I wasn’t doing as well as I should be. So I am back in physical therapy and I am just about in the middle of my 6 week program, as I write this.

Going to a new physical therapy facility is good, so far I have learned that doing my exercises was good but now it was time to change things up. I now know which muscles I need to strengthen to support my spine from top to bottom. I’m stretch the muscles that I tighten. Parts of my spine go out of alinement and need to be supported by stronger muscles. I have a lot of work to get my back healthy again. I didn’t realize how much I was out of whack. Until now!


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